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| So, Rachelle and I went over to Jen's house to play Monopoly. I had 4 houses on the Boardwalk and bankrupted Jen's little sister, Jackie. Of course she throws the biggest temper tantrum: ripping paper, throwing carpets and shoes, and calling us "Stupid Geeks".. which is an oxymoron right? Oh well, that's expected of her. She has one of those everytime Jen has her friends over. Maybe next time Jackie has friends over I'll act a fool and throw a tantrum.
Foo.. so now I'm bored again. I could study for SAT.. but why would I on a Friday night.
Eh..
I miss my Dad and Cali.
It seems like I'm experiencing a double separation anxiety.. my heart physically aches when I think about it.
Tomorrow is the 19th.
It's been two months since Cali passed away. I can't believe I haven't seen her for that long. I really miss coming home to a sweet super hyper doggie who was always happy to see me no matter what.
I remember when I had to go to Kentucky and we left Cali at a doggie hotel. We told the people there that she didn't get along that well with big dogs so they put her in a pen with all the tiny toy doggies. I remember when we came back to pick her up a week later. I remember her running around the little pen and all the little doggies following behind her. I remember standing by the fence until she turned around. I remember her seeing me and getting soo excited. Soo excited and happy that she actually climbed the 4 foot fence and jumped all over me.
I know when it's my turn to leave this place.. It's going to be me climbing to get to her.
She really did take a piece of my heart.. and I know I'll never get it back. | | |
| "If I were to surround myself with clowns, I could warn off all evil." | | |
| My dog Cali of 9 years passed away at 2:48pm today. My mom and I were driving to the hospital so I could hold her while they put her to sleep. But, she died about 20 minutes before we got there. She already had a heart attack in the early morning, but they resuscitated her. That’s fine with me that she died before I got there. I don’t think I could’ve handled seeing her die in front of my eyes.
My mom already prepared herself. She’s not the type of person to cry over a dog. But she is going to miss Cali a lot. Since my mom falls asleep on the couch a lot, Cali would be the one to wake her up to go to bed.
My dad, he’s going to miss Cali the most. Cali was his little black shadow, she’d always follow his ankles around the house. Whenever Cali would hear the sound of the tape dispenser and the rustle of paper she’d know it was time to haul ass to the mail box.
I’m going to miss her presence the most. That cute jingle of the 3 three tags on her collar, the clicking and taps of her nails on the wood floor. Whenever the door bell rang she’d be the first there. Or whenever you’d say “leash” or “walk” or rustle her chain leash she’d loose her mind wanting to get out of the house.
That saying is so true: “You don’t know what you have until it’s gone.” So incredibly true.
I’m still in denial about the whole thing. I still hoped for a muffled whine or thump from that box that she rested in. When I was watching her late Saturday night when she was sick and vomiting. I kept telling her, “No.. it’s not your time Cali. You’re supposed to be my immortal dog, you’re supposed to bounce back.” I thought she was going to die from just being really old, not from being sick. But I guess I was just being selfish.
It’s going to be so different now. Quiet.
No cute little black and white face to greet me in the morning. No wiggling body happy to see me when I come home from school.
If the whole world hated me, she’d be there to lick the tears off of my face.
I’m trying not to cry about it anymore. Trying to remember the good times, smiling. She always glowed with love and happiness. She was 9, about 75 in human years. But she never acted her age or looked it. Everyone always thought she was a puppy.
I didn’t want to see her body. I was scared I’d freak out or try to run away with it to do some black magic to revive her.
As my dad was digging the hole we reminisced about Cali. We shared some good tears and memories.
We buried her in our backyard on top of our big hill, to the left in the sun.
We buried her in her favorite bed basket. I didn’t know if I should keep her collar or not. My dad said it was best to have it on her so when we all go to heaven all we had to do was listen for that jingle to find her. We also put her red harness and metal link leash in her basket since she loved to walk so much.
I put the first soil on her. I told her I loved her so much and left. I couldn’t watch as my dad filled the rest of the hole with dirt.
I half-heartedly wished she would’ve waited for me before she died so I could say goodbye. But earlier this week she kept waking me up in the middle of the night and she also wanted to go to my parents’ room. Maybe she knew it already.
But now, she’s free from pain. All the pain. She had a bad heart and leg. But those didn’t stop her from enjoying life. Even with those problems she could still out run you. I believe the main cause of her death was pancreatitis. It was mentioned before when she got sick a couple years ago. It might have been genetics, she was a mixed breed.
Thank you to all my friends who prayed for Cali. It really meant a lot to me and my family and Cali.
You were there for me half of my life.
Until we see you on the other side Ms. Cali, we’ll think of you everyday.
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| So yeah, if you saw my post earlier.. disregard it. TY.
Basically all I did today was take the Stupid Ass Test aka SAT.
It's really easy for the first half, but then it gets harder and you get all tired.
Took four damn hours!
Saw some familiar people from Eastlake, but I didn't really say hi to them.
NOW BLOGGING AT:
http://prettyboat.livejournal.com/
JOIN THE REVOLUTION.
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lol. | | |
| I just spent 2 hours watching shows I missed this week on COX DV-R. That thing is wonderful, get it. Smallville was gross.. skeleton-less bodies. Eek.
And..
"No Naruto: Shippuuden until March 15th. Everybody Panic!"
WTH. I hate you TV Tokyo.
HOY, SAT tomorrow!! I have to leave the house before 7am or something.
Don't forget to set your clocks forward an hour tomorrow night. It's the "bad one".
It's not even a vacation this time.. I have so much hw/ec.
But the extra credit assignment for my math class is pretty sweet. I can get up to 15% ec on my Final! That's a grade & 1/2. Dang..
Well.. I guess having stuff to do is better than sitting around twiddling my fingers for the next 4 weeks.
Crap, I need to call the Civic Center Library. Community service, yo. I'm probably going to sign up for Sundays, since my next two Saturdays are booked. My year pass for Universal Studios hasn't expired yet so I want to go next weekend before my Dad leaves at the end of this month.
EDIT; WHAAAAAAAAAATTTT???!?!!??!!?
WTFWTFWTF.
HOW DARE YOU KISHIMOTO.
This has to be the WORST Naruto cliff hangers EVER. Damnit.
Personally.. I'm rooting for Sasuke.. to hell with Orochimaru.
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"Come, come, you wasp; i' faith, you are too angry."
"If I be waspish, best beware my sting." | | |
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Jade. 6teen. 5'4". Class of 2008. Acting. Ebay. Crafts. Sleep. Tea. Red & Green. Hot weather. Clouds. Manga. Gaara.
