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Fri, 18 May 2007 23:50:33 GMT

So, Rachelle and I went over to Jen's house to play Monopoly. I had 4 houses on the Boardwalk and bankrupted Jen's little sister, Jackie. Of course she throws the biggest temper tantrum: ripping paper, throwing carpets and shoes, and calling us "Stupid Geeks".. which is an oxymoron right? Oh well, that's expected of her. She has one of those everytime Jen has her friends over. Maybe next time Jackie has friends over I'll act a fool and throw a tantrum.

Foo.. so now I'm bored again. I could study for SAT.. but why would I on a Friday night.

Eh..

I miss my Dad and Cali.

It seems like I'm experiencing a double separation anxiety.. my heart physically aches when I think about it.

Tomorrow is the 19th.

It's been two months since Cali passed away. I can't believe I haven't seen her for that long. I really miss coming home to a sweet super hyper doggie who was always happy to see me no matter what.

I remember when I had to go to Kentucky and we left Cali at a doggie hotel. We told the people there that she didn't get along that well with big dogs so they put her in a pen with all the tiny toy doggies. I remember when we came back to pick her up a week later. I remember her running around the little pen and all the little doggies following behind her. I remember standing by the fence until she turned around. I remember her seeing me and getting soo excited. Soo excited and happy that she actually climbed the 4 foot fence and jumped all over me.

I know when it's my turn to leave this place.. It's going to be me climbing to get to her.

She really did take a piece of my heart.. and I know I'll never get it back.

Monday, April 30, 2007

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 02:34:11 GMT

"If I were to surround myself with clowns, I could warn off all evil."

Cali for California

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 23:56:35 GMT

My dog Cali of 9 years passed away at 2:48pm today. My mom and I were driving to the hospital so I could hold her while they put her to sleep. But, she died about 20 minutes before we got there. She already had a heart attack in the early morning, but they resuscitated her. That’s fine with me that she died before I got there. I don’t think I could’ve handled seeing her die in front of my eyes.

My mom already prepared herself. She’s not the type of person to cry over a dog. But she is going to miss Cali a lot. Since my mom falls asleep on the couch a lot, Cali would be the one to wake her up to go to bed.

My dad, he’s going to miss Cali the most. Cali was his little black shadow, she’d always follow his ankles around the house. Whenever Cali would hear the sound of the tape dispenser and the rustle of paper she’d know it was time to haul ass to the mail box.

I’m going to miss her presence the most. That cute jingle of the 3 three tags on her collar, the clicking and taps of her nails on the wood floor. Whenever the door bell rang she’d be the first there. Or whenever you’d say “leash” or “walk” or rustle her chain leash she’d loose her mind wanting to get out of the house.

That saying is so true: “You don’t know what you have until it’s gone.” So incredibly true.

I’m still in denial about the whole thing. I still hoped for a muffled whine or thump from that box that she rested in. When I was watching her late Saturday night when she was sick and vomiting. I kept telling her, “No.. it’s not your time Cali. You’re supposed to be my immortal dog, you’re supposed to bounce back.” I thought she was going to die from just being really old, not from being sick. But I guess I was just being selfish.

It’s going to be so different now. Quiet.

No cute little black and white face to greet me in the morning. No wiggling body happy to see me when I come home from school.

If the whole world hated me, she’d be there to lick the tears off of my face.

I’m trying not to cry about it anymore. Trying to remember the good times, smiling. She always glowed with love and happiness. She was 9, about 75 in human years. But she never acted her age or looked it. Everyone always thought she was a puppy.

I didn’t want to see her body. I was scared I’d freak out or try to run away with it to do some black magic to revive her.

As my dad was digging the hole we reminisced about Cali. We shared some good tears and memories.

We buried her in our backyard on top of our big hill, to the left in the sun.

We buried her in her favorite bed basket. I didn’t know if I should keep her collar or not. My dad said it was best to have it on her so when we all go to heaven all we had to do was listen for that jingle to find her. We also put her red harness and metal link leash in her basket since she loved to walk so much.

I put the first soil on her. I told her I loved her so much and left. I couldn’t watch as my dad filled the rest of the hole with dirt.

I half-heartedly wished she would’ve waited for me before she died so I could say goodbye. But earlier this week she kept waking me up in the middle of the night and she also wanted to go to my parents’ room. Maybe she knew it already.

But now, she’s free from pain. All the pain. She had a bad heart and leg. But those didn’t stop her from enjoying life. Even with those problems she could still out run you. I believe the main cause of her death was pancreatitis. It was mentioned before when she got sick a couple years ago. It might have been genetics, she was a mixed breed.

Thank you to all my friends who prayed for Cali. It really meant a lot to me and my family and Cali.

You were there for me half of my life.

Until we see you on the other side Ms. Cali, we’ll think of you everyday.

http://members.cox.net/ultrapotion/kawaii_cali.jpg

Buh-bye Xanga, it's been nice.

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 01:43:47 GMT

So yeah, if you saw my post earlier.. disregard it. TY.

Basically all I did today was take the Stupid Ass Test aka SAT.

It's really easy for the first half, but then it gets harder and you get all tired.

Took four damn hours!

Saw some familiar people from Eastlake, but I didn't really say hi to them.

NOW BLOGGING AT:

http://prettyboat.livejournal.com/

JOIN THE REVOLUTION.

...

lol.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 01:33:28 GMT

I just spent 2 hours watching shows I missed this week on COX DV-R. That thing is wonderful, get it. Smallville was gross.. skeleton-less bodies. Eek.

And..

"No Naruto: Shippuuden until March 15th. Everybody Panic!"
WTH. I hate you TV Tokyo.

HOY, SAT tomorrow!! I have to leave the house before 7am or something.

Don't forget to set your clocks forward an hour tomorrow night. It's the "bad one".

It's not even a vacation this time.. I have so much hw/ec.

But the extra credit assignment for my math class is pretty sweet. I can get up to 15% ec on my Final! That's a grade & 1/2. Dang..

Well.. I guess having stuff to do is better than sitting around twiddling my fingers for the next 4 weeks.

Crap, I need to call the Civic Center Library. Community service, yo. I'm probably going to sign up for Sundays, since my next two Saturdays are booked. My year pass for Universal Studios hasn't expired yet so I want to go next weekend before my Dad leaves at the end of this month.

EDIT; WHAAAAAAAAAATTTT???!?!!??!!?

WTFWTFWTF.

HOW DARE YOU KISHIMOTO.

This has to be the WORST Naruto cliff hangers EVER. Damnit.

Personally.. I'm rooting for Sasuke.. to hell with Orochimaru.

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"Come, come, you wasp; i' faith, you are too angry."

"If I be waspish, best beware my sting."

3, 2, 1 Make some noise.

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 00:14:45 GMT

Gez, my own xanga startled me. The Killers song is loud.. :X

Fuu, ton of hw tonight.

I don't know what kind of mood I'll have in Drama tomorrow. It's all my Drama's teachers stupid fault that I can't go on the field trip. I have to take a quiz because I can't go. Fuck that.

I've been browsing Naruto shrines.. there are very very few of them. I did find this really awesome Sasuke shrine:

http://www.geostigma.net/sasuke/

It takes you on a mini-journey.. there are different layouts for each page/story. I seriously don't have the passion to do all that.. unless I had at least a week of free time.

If I get my domain.. I want to make mini-shrines. I really want to make Gaara (Naruto) and a Nana (Elfen Lied) shrines. Because they're awesome.

Daily Horoscope for Libra:
"Others are more willing than usual to indulge your need for pleasure and it would be foolish not to accept their help."

Oh, wow.

edit ;
http://akureikarasu.deviantart.com/

^ official stalker of her ass.

have you seen her gaara/naruto shrine??!!?

it's INSANE.

she's... god.

T_____T;;;

i sent her a scary fangirl email. O-o

Blowing shit up in your town

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 00:46:40 GMT

Bah, I have this sudden urge to write a story, even though I suck at writing and usually hate it.

Well, if I ever get around to it.. it's going to be about a small group of awesome bounty hunters. Whee-snnawh.

So, I really hate Mr. G, the jackass bald drama teacher.

I can't go on the Filipino field trip because of him.

Even though I fund raised and all that crap.

Well, fuck.

I'm so not taking Drama Production next year.. I can't stand him. Maybe I'll take Human Anatomy instead.. I'm planning on being a Nurse anyway.

Annndddd... I want a domain/website/thinger... ughh.. I've wanted one since the 8th grade.. I just never got around to it. I found a super cheap host too. Maybe I'll buy it next week.. OOOO.. Gaara shrinage?? YAY.

It was super hot and dry today.
And it's super chill in New York. hmf.

Soooo, group test in AP USH. Yeah, I'm pretty sure we got at least an A-. AWESOME. I hope that gets me a B in that class..

To hell with Physics. I thought I did pretty well on that stupid test.. I didn't even get a B.

I want my license.. and a car. I don't care if it's used when I buy it.. as long as it's a green vwb.

I want to drive to the beach every weekend and nap.

edit ;
"A Maryland boy dies after suffering a toothache."

That must of been one hell of a toothache. Eeeek.

Monday, March 05, 2007

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 01:25:35 GMT

I watched A Knight's Tale while doing AP USH hw.

"You desecrate the House of God!!!"

lawlz.

Hmmf, I still have to do the Deckers assignment.. and some math stuff. Phoo.

Damn, SAT on Saturday.

I almost drove to Mexico today.

I started to get nervous because we (my Dad & I) were passing all the "Last U.S. Exit" signs or "Turn back now!!" signs.

But there is one last U-turn after all those signs.

edit;
"OK. Every time I hear the opening song/rap for Naruto Shippuden,
I get so excited, I kick myself in the face."
~ Liam O'Brien, English VA for Gaara of Naruto

AWW, Liam watches Shippuuden and gets all "fangirly".. how cute!!
Gez, I want to hug him. Maybe he'll go to Comic Con this year!
I need to save up my money. I couldn't go last year because I was broke. D:

Shippuuding episode 4! Pudding.. ahha.

Deidara blowing shit up.. wooo.. Gaara pwning him.

Gaara is like an earth bender.. cools.

"Gaara-sama.. is fighting in the sky!"

lawlz.

My blogs are filled with quotes and me lawling at them. Woot.

useless.

edit 2;

I'm going to talk about how blogging is healthy for me again, although no one is saying it's not.

Before I used to call up one of my friends, usually Mary, and talk their ear off. "What are you dooooing?? What are you wearing?? Wtf...."

Or, talk to my Dad about stuff he doesn't give a shit about.
I could get more attention talking to my dog.

But with a blog/xanga, I can be the idiot I am and if I don't want comments I can disable them.

It's funny how people talk more on the internet than in real life.

It's like that one Deckers assignment on how that lady was engulfed in the 'cyber life'.

There is less shame on the internet. Appearance doesn't matter.. unless you're a camera whore or something.

Whatever.

wtf was that.

shit.

edit 3;
I pull the trigger, the gun goes off. The beach gets bloody and you get dead.

shaahhh.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 02:10:15 GMT

"NO! Don't you dare touch her! Her.. her boobs belong to me!"
"What?! We're about to get eaten by a demon and that's all you can think about?!"

"Woman, what in all layers of hell do you think you're doing?"

lawlz.

i <3 kyo/kyoshiro/yuya

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 22:28:25 GMT

I got 'invited' or whatever to play Hibiya Chitose for the fandub of Episode 2 of Chobits.. I guess I'm a backup or something.

And.. I'm waiting for the script for the Inuyasha radioplay.. I'm playing Matsuon'e, I think she's an OC. I'm not very sure.

Annnddd.. I'm waiting for Episode 5 of Team Iron Angel: Black Dawn of the Golden Age, because I'm playing Miri, the cousin of the main character Soong. Wee.. I thought I was just a one time guest character but I'm coming back in Episode 10, what happens to my character is a secret though.. Yay, cool beans.
SHAMELESS PLUG: http://kungfuactiontheatre.com/

SHANNARO! Shippuuden ep. 4 came out today... I'll wait till tomorrow for the subbed one.

Finally the poetry project is over. One less thing to stress over. Wait, do we have to read another indie novel??

A lot of homework tonight.. mainly.. AP USH, that chart thingy.. and endless test corrections which I don't have the answers to btw. D:< Thanks, Mrs. Kray.

BUUUTTT.. I want to paint my sexy drawing of Gaara.. he's shirtless.. my mind flys to the gutter whenever I look at it. Reeddd fluffy hairrrrr.. weeeee.. If he was real.. I couldn't even rape him because his sand spirit would block me off. Aww.. I'll find a way. And I can rape Mr. Uzumaki too.. almost the same thing.. well not really.. Naruto probably has more stamina. LAWLZ, I kid I kid.

I don't know if I should go to the Filipino field trip on Wednesday.. if I go.. I'd only be going for the food anyway. But I'm going to miss half of AP USH. Funk.

In Physics we started a new chapter which is way confusing.. it's back to electron and protons.. but with crazy equations.

I believe I have decided what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, or the next few years at least.

I'm going to be a Nurse, or Nurse Practioner. (I didn't mean to copy you Bianca, I had this thing planned out too)

Because my mom talks my ear off about how I should become a Nurse every single damn day.

I'm doing this to:
1. Shut her up.
2. Make good money.
3. Take care of my parents when they get old.
4. I'm not going to drop them off in a care home.
5. I can't become a professional drifter. -le sigh-

Family plans.
If I find someone.. sure whatever. Currently I'm very pessimistic about 'love'. Nearly all of my friends cried over their relationships/break ups. I'm not wasting my tears for some stupid boy. I have other things to cry about. If cupid doesn't shoot my ass by the time I'm 30 or over, I'm adopting. Not some kid from Africa or China. There are kids in the U.S. that should be adopted to.

And with the money, I want to have my own place and live out my mini-dream of being an interior designer. I also want to own an awesome computer and a green vwb.

And.. I still want to act on the side.. if I can.

How retarded.

If you see any grammatical errors in the post, it's just your imagination.

edit;
"Oh I'm bound to go
Where there ain't no snow
Where the rain don't fall
The winds don't blow
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains."